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This is some kind of adventure. The entire last week has been so eventful. Tired, but energized.

Everything has changed, and nothing's different. You've seen people write those words before. Sometimes in the past I've thought them. I don't really feel like that. How can nothing be different when everything has changed? True, the nothing being different is kind of true from a 'life goes on' standpoint... But, Life goes on, regardless if things have changed or stayed the same. The change is personal. It isn't somehow less true because it doesn't impact the day to day hum-drum.

I wish I had someone to talk to about this. Yet if I did, then the changes wouldn't have manifested. I guess this is what it's like when you learn to stand on your own feet. It was a long while coming. I kept saying I wanted it to arrive, but it wasn't true. I didn't want to have to be the one to stand. I'm still not sure how to. Like a baby, I'm toddling along as if walking is nothing new, but I just learned how to do it. ...It still took too long.

In a way I'm not even sure any of it's real. That's kind of the price. A look beyond this world makes it so. What's real? What isn't real? Even the lack of reality somehow lends credence to the fabric of everything.

Right now I'm reading a book recommended by a friend. It explains things that didn't make sense before, but they are all things that I'm not sure I can bring up now. Not after that.

It warps my perspective. It makes me have to look at things in the opposite manner than he would have tried to show me. I have to see it from the other direction. Two ships passing in the night.

[And just when it all became clear,
This sky-lid went away.

Liquid drenching came from whence?
A cloud I wanted to fly through.

What if I could become the rain?
And fall through the sky in reverse.

I AM THE MIST. Rise! The light's warmth!
As the Ice becomes the Water's Vapor.]


morphic_web: Zelgadis from an anime "Slayers" (Default)

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