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Why. Why do I still want to live side by side with my enemies? Those who destroyed me the most. Are those I crave the most to remain at my side? If I could just find it in me to survive such tests...

I know that's the key. I know it's the way for me. I don't know if I can do it though.

Maybe it's not for this life? I just. Don't know. There's more to be resolved. Is it ok to let things 'slide' until the next lifetime? (Reincarnation)

Maybe it is... Maybe because they aren't ready to enter the next phase? I am. I am, but yet, I'm not. Conditions haven't changed enough. Even for me, even though I was the one that put in all the work to defeat the past while they blamed me.

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